i choose..

i closed my eyes for a couple of minutes to free my mind and search for peace inside me. instead what i found are chaos. i am seeing the world at its worst. i saw violence. dirty places and mountains of trash. indifference to one another. the dying planet. i opened my eyes because i did not see what i wanted to see. i do not want to see my self in the middle of these things. i tried to close again my eyes. i heared the pouring of the rain. saw birds fying with green mountains on the background. then i was on the beach. white sand. the waves touch my feet every couple of seconds as they washed away my footprints from behind. then i was flying in a plane sitting by the window. i saw clouds. sea of clouds. and i was relieved.

i realized i could chose to see and feel what i want to see and feel even when i am in doubt, even when things get complicated, even when some people do not believe, even when some do not trust. it is only me who has the power to become what i want to become.

the world will still continue to revolve no matter what happens to me. even when im happy or im sad or in sorrow. even when nobody trust me or when i do not trust someone. its going to be the same world that we live in. what i can do is to choose how to live and be satisfied with what i do.

pangea day

watch pangea day in youtube.  borderless world. to live closer together. according to wiki:

the event's goals are to:

• Bring together millions of people from all over the world in a unique shared experience
• Use the power of film to create a better understanding of one and another
• Form a global community striving for a better future

rice shortage

i still can't believe that third world country philippines experiences rice shortage. its just not true. the truth is that the price soared up to the sky but there was no shortage at all. rice is one of the major farm products (i really don't know how to call it) next to corn. almost all provinces have rice paddies. what do they plant there? kangkong? of course rice. where's the harvest? maybe they were keeping them somewhere. as far as i know there's really no shortage. it was only hyped by the media and the government. we really do not need to import from neighboring countries. they are just doing this to divert our attention. to forget the ongoing investigation to those corrupt officials. see jun lozada was suddenly forgotten because of this! 

its really fun living in the philippines. lots of thick faces (direct translation). the businessmen, politician, businessmen-cum-politician. greed. i wonder how in the world will they spent all these money in their lifetime. don't wanna think about it.