i choose..

i closed my eyes for a couple of minutes to free my mind and search for peace inside me. instead what i found are chaos. i am seeing the world at its worst. i saw violence. dirty places and mountains of trash. indifference to one another. the dying planet. i opened my eyes because i did not see what i wanted to see. i do not want to see my self in the middle of these things. i tried to close again my eyes. i heared the pouring of the rain. saw birds fying with green mountains on the background. then i was on the beach. white sand. the waves touch my feet every couple of seconds as they washed away my footprints from behind. then i was flying in a plane sitting by the window. i saw clouds. sea of clouds. and i was relieved.

i realized i could chose to see and feel what i want to see and feel even when i am in doubt, even when things get complicated, even when some people do not believe, even when some do not trust. it is only me who has the power to become what i want to become.

the world will still continue to revolve no matter what happens to me. even when im happy or im sad or in sorrow. even when nobody trust me or when i do not trust someone. its going to be the same world that we live in. what i can do is to choose how to live and be satisfied with what i do.

pangea day

watch pangea day in youtube.  borderless world. to live closer together. according to wiki:

the event's goals are to:

• Bring together millions of people from all over the world in a unique shared experience
• Use the power of film to create a better understanding of one and another
• Form a global community striving for a better future

rice shortage

i still can't believe that third world country philippines experiences rice shortage. its just not true. the truth is that the price soared up to the sky but there was no shortage at all. rice is one of the major farm products (i really don't know how to call it) next to corn. almost all provinces have rice paddies. what do they plant there? kangkong? of course rice. where's the harvest? maybe they were keeping them somewhere. as far as i know there's really no shortage. it was only hyped by the media and the government. we really do not need to import from neighboring countries. they are just doing this to divert our attention. to forget the ongoing investigation to those corrupt officials. see jun lozada was suddenly forgotten because of this! 

its really fun living in the philippines. lots of thick faces (direct translation). the businessmen, politician, businessmen-cum-politician. greed. i wonder how in the world will they spent all these money in their lifetime. don't wanna think about it. 

go green

reuse, recycle and reduce.

everyone of us should follow these rules.

keep the environment clean. avoid using products that cause harm to humans or the environment. support green projects. limit the use of power/energy. buy only energy saving products. try using solar powered devices. use a bicycle instead of driving a car for a short distance travel.

help save the environment. save the cheer.leader save the world. he he he

visit www.planetgreen.discovery.com for more info.

image source:planetgreen.discovery.com

may gumugulo sa isip ko. medyo wala sa lugar pero ayaw maalis sa isip ko eh. basta napaisip na naman ako. ganito kase yon. di ba me isyu sa global warming. tas mabubutas ang oson leyer. tapos ang epekto nito, magkakaroon ng malawakang pagbaha sa ilang lugar samantalang sa ibang lugar naman ay tagtuyot. tas unti-unti ng masisira ang mundo. eto na ang gumugulo sa isip ko. medyo hindi releyted na medyo releyted na rin. san na titira ang mga engkanto, duwende, ligaw na kaluluwa at iba pang supernatural na nilalang tulad ng siyokoy at sirena kapag nasira na ang mundo. me epek pa rin kaya ang madyik nila?

dahil nalaman ko na ang namatay na kamag-anak o kapamilya ay nagpaparamdam kapag sila ay pumanaw saan mang lugar sila namatay may naisip na naman akong gawin kapag ako ang namatay. pero bago yun konting paliwanag lang para malinaw. yung lolo ko nasa amerika nung namatay. nalaman naming patay na kase nga naman nagparamdam. nauna pa sa tawag ng mga tita ko. mas mabilis pa sa text. parang ganun. o medyo gets na? ganito. ako naman pag namatay ako hindi ako magpaparamdam. kachipan na yun. ang gagawin ko shempre mamamasyal na ako sa buong mundo. pupuntahan ko na ang mga lugar na hindi ko pa napupuntahan. at least hindi ko na pag-iipunan ang pamasahe ko. itatanong ko na lang kay lolo kung paano magteleport kapag kaluluwa ka na. o tipid di ba? abnoy ba?

pilipinas

holdapan. nakawan. mga sunog. pagbaha. rape case. pulitika. ekonomiya. atbp.

halika na sa pilipinas. ang karnibal ng totoong buhay.

nakakatuwa. nakakainis. nakakagutom. nakakapagod. manood ng tv.
pareparehong palabas. recycled na pelikula. recycled na pulitiko. inuulit na balita. wala na bang iba? wala na bang bago? yung kakaiba? yung magkiklik sa masa? yung hindi pa nagagawa ninuman? yung wala pang nakakaisip ng ideyang ganyan? alam mo ba ibig kng sabihin? siguro hindi. kase kahit ako hindi ko rin alam eh. gulo no? sige lalo na lang nating guluhin para masaya. para maging malungkot yung iba. para lalong maghirap ang marami at maging mayaman ang iilan lang. sawa ka na ba? ako hindi pa. lalo nating palalain. ang sitwasyon. ang buhay. ang isip. isip mo at isip ko. pati na din ng mga kapitbahay mo.

minsan naisip ko. paano ba magiging mayaman ang pilipinas? paano ba masosolusyunan ang isyu ng kahirapan? meron akong naisip. mag-aanunsyo ako. ipapatawag ko lahat ng mahihirap na gustong yumaman. ang tipanan? hmmm. siguro sa sentral luzon na lang. medyo maluwag. kasya na ang ilang milyon. kung saan hulaan niyo. kapag andun na lahat at eksayted na sa kanilang inaasahan bigla kong ibabagsak ang limang bomba atomiko. siguradong lipol ang lahat ng dumating. subalit medyo brutal yon. naisip ko hindi makatao. sabagay hindi rin naman kami mayaman. baka sumama pa ang pamilya ko dun. wag na lang. trabaho na lang tayo. baka sakaling yumaman din pagdating ng panahon.

2008

i have all the time in my life yet i had wasted so much of it. i haven’t done any good for these past weeks. yeah i know. i am upset but what should i do. i always end up being like this.

still got colds and cough. got no money to spend. frustrated over my incompetence. got a lot of good plans but then again i can’t seem to find a way to accomplish them all. i am sometimes afraid. to just finish them. to even start them.
i know. i know. i can’t even find some things to do to entertain myself. how pathetic of me huh? its really not boring but then what do you want to call it? inactive might be acceptable i guess. i have all the luxury of time but i just don’t know what to do of it. laziness. and fears. and… and… lots of excuses. that’s me. so very me. i am not complaining though. i have regrets yes but if i would be on the same track i would just do the same.

pic on the right is my timex watch. not so expensive. who needs very expensive watch and gets late for an appointment? sometimes that is the irony of it.