photo:bawal ihi.. putol titi

seen in malaysia: Please don't pee in public places (i guess)

what d'ya think?

on dying

i just got a text message from my friend that his mom already died. i guess he and his family was already expecting it. she had a cancer in the stomach (as i recall). it was already a year since they admitted her to the hospital. they have no enough money to pay the bills and the meds so they sought assistance from pcso. i will be visiting the wake soonest since i still have work until wednesday.

the last member that passed away in my family was my lolo. my uncle died first. that's on my father's part. on my mom's part was my aunt. we have a big family but i don't know when is my time. what a morbid statement. 

when someone close to you dies, you feel sad. if its a family member its sadder. you can only sympathize to someone's lost but when it is happening to you its different. 

at this point i still can't see the essence of dying. i mean the deeper meaning of it. what i know is that they stop being with you. you won't see them anymore when they are buried or cremated. people come and go in my life. those living and the dead so i sometimes don't know the difference anymore. i can't force myself to simply cry when it happens. i am much moved to tears by a movie than this situation. 

all i think right now is what will happen to me when i die. will i cease to exist? will i still be me, a bodiless mind suspended in the air? i don't know. for the mean time i will pray for their soul. 

got to sleep now. if i die before i wake i pray the lord my soul to take..

travel: my lakbayan grade is C

well i have yet to conquer the philippines.. and the rest of the world. let me show you part of my travels in the country. don't judge the poor traveler like me. i don't have wings to simply fly. i pay airfare, take the bus and sometimes fastcraft/fastferry to go from island to island... and its not often. like i have to rest too. and save again. i am leaving again (soon). my itinerary is done. my ticket is ready. i am seeing terminal 3 in the distance. he he he.  My Lakbayan grade is C! How much of the Philippines have you visited? Find out at Lakbayan! Created by Eugene Villar.

shoes:puma ducati

i was looking for a puma shoes 2 months ago. i was not lucky in finding one. when looking or shopping for a shoes sometimes it doesn't need to be the latest one. personally  i am looking for a connection. like this particular shoes will look good on me and i will definitely comfortable wearing it. i am not particular with the price though as long as it is not ridiculously priced. so here's what i got awhile ago:

behold. this box contains the puma ducati.

dyaran

left view with the puma logo

right side. i think it would be better if this side has the puma logo/design

look how cool the sole is. yeah yeah. this will kiss the ground, muddy streets of metro but whatever.

my original plan was to buy an alternate shoes for my white reebok tennis shoes since it is still rainy season. i was thinking of a black or a brown one. but i found this. it really defeated the purpose of getting a rainy day shoes but then again what can i say. so that's the irrelevant story of my puma ducati shoes.

travel: trip to chinatown

this afternoon my officemate and i went to quiapo/hildalgo to check some dslr cameras which are far cheaper than mall price. imagine the price difference of about Php18 ,000. That is around US$400. anyway we proceeded to chinatown/ongpin/binondo for some heavy chinese. its quite like going back to shanghai. really. i mean the old shanghai.

quote

sometimes, even in the darkness we don’t need a light to see. we just need to move in one direction instead of wandering. its like walking with closed eyes and just following your heart where it leads. you may land somewhere but you really get there anyway. even if its dark

tee24 10/2/08

i love...

to travel

new shoes

my family

buddhas

sleeping

nadal vs federer

my guitar

procrastination

the beach

sydney sheldon books

you.... ( u know who u are)